Today, today on my 33 year of life, I share this.
What the year has brought me.
I’ve tapped into this immensely vibrant and raw capacity to love my daughter beyond imaginable.
I’ve learned what it means to be a mother, the greatest gift in the world.
I’ve found a strength, oh a strength beyond what I had known.
It’s brought a slowness, an immense slowness - creating space and time to honor, to appreciate, to take in the small, the greatest moments of life.
A need, a desire, to write, to share the humble expressions on my soul.
Some of the hardest conversations with my husband in learning what it means to be parents, together.
An immense, I mean immense appreciation for my body, this vessel who supports my life,
supported the growth of my daughter and has continued to serve as her nourishment throughout her first year of life.
A need to ask for help, humble need for support.
An awareness in my connection to documenting, storytelling as I grew with questions that would never have answers.
This obsessive desire for a clean, nourishing, diverse, culturally educational house.
A deeper appreciation for being an entrepreneur and having a flexible schedule and a community that supports me beyond comprehension.
Hardships followed by breakthroughs.
Laughter followed by anxiety attacks.
Pain followed by overwhelming love.
Clarity followed by confusion.
Commitment followed by utter exhaustion.
Presence followed by chaos.
Euphoria followed by depression.
Lost friendships followed by strengthened ones.
Humble expression followed by judgments.
I have come to love, to understand, to honor it all, all that I am in this lifetime.
I share when inspired.
I do what my soul desires.
My daughter is my greatest teacher.
My husband is my best friend.
Nature is my sanctuary, my medicine, my home.
Presence is the answer.
I am the river.
Everyday I am learning, I am growing, I am becoming more me.
For this, I am so incredibly proud, honored, humbled, grateful to live this life.